Untinged laughter

Truthfully speaking, it has been some time since my laughter has not been tinged with other feelings. It started slowly; guilt creeping in that I should be completing assignments instead of having fun, that I should be studying instead of going out.

Other emotions started creeping in. Laughing to cover up sadness, laughter to cover up disbelief. Laughter and then remembering others were having a hard time; personal guilt turned to guilt towards others and the supposed lack of laughter in their life. Laughter and feeling the weight of the world pushing it away. It has been some time since laughter has brought only light feelings.