In the shade

2019.10.23 23:22

Like a cat

Invalidated

There are many things I dislike. There are behaviours, actions, and mindsets that I thoroughly dislike, and will not tolerate the idea of. 

So then it should be simple to sort through the types of people I despise...

Yet, I invalidate my own feelings by making excuses for others; not out of some magnanimous attempt to be kind, but because I can not trust myself to read the situation right. I often go against my instincts because I worry of the source of where they were informed; by prejudice, misguided notions, stereotypes, unrealistic expectations, trauma. 

Creation for consumption

 A few years ago, I was speaking with a friend about my wishes of creating more through different mediums. I mentioned that I would get caught up watching or reading or viewing other creations in search of inspiration, technique, etc... and get carried away. 

Fleeting

The impermanence of items and objects is visual as it degrades gradually over time.

Cycling through the valley

I have been having some consistently awesome days lately. As the world begins its yearly thaw, the willingness for outdoor activities increases. 

I often come home at the end of a long day filled with pleasant memories of a day spent with loved ones. Having seen new sights, eaten good food, and having long conversations that continue to bolster our camaraderie.

Carried by a tune

The unique power of music

to transport me to a time when I felt happy, safe, proud

the comfort that slowly seeps through the slow chill that has been suffocating 

playlists that now mark the passage of time

placeholders for the thoughts, feelings, and dreams that seemed so far removed from my current reality

A refresher on travelling

here we are 

chasing the sunset 

Insurance

I stepped away from a lot of doing for a time; a pause longer than I had ever anticipated. When I slowly stepped back in, there weren't many changes in my life, and the pandemic only served to continue that slow pace. Recently, there was a ramp up to unexpected levels that was not unwelcome, but definitely served to test my ability to adapt. 

No vacancy

 I don't know how well I can articulate my thoughts at the moment as my brain feels frazzled. Writing down words is a little more difficult than usual.